Danse Pendant La Vie

Maturity

2011-10-08T23:29:00.002+11:00

God, thanks for helping me to be calm and not get controlled by my anger and other negative emotions. I'm glad I felt the change during it and was able to end it relatively well.

Anw, life has just been normal recently. Have been going to the lab early everyday ever since my sister was here, I realised that I could've done so much more if I start the day early. I'm usually home by lunch time and I can spend the rest of the day doing whatever I want, finished black ops, hoping to finish GTA4 soon so that I can start on other FPS games haha. Black Ops was really gd, very gd twist at the end, love it.

Something happened at home recently too, oh well, will be keeping everyone back at home in prayer.

Life has been good, bonding more with friends that I didnt use to have the time or energy to bond with when I was still attached. Yup, thank God for these relationships! And oh yeah, will try to update this blog more often...when I have the time, haha!

There's nothing

2011-09-03T23:16:00.001+10:00

Never Ending Story

2011-08-29T22:12:00.001+10:00

Determined

2011-08-27T23:34:00.002+10:00

Motivation from not wanting ppl around me to worry for me, so I shall move on and let go cleanly asap.

It's hard to let go of your first love, but I can do it, watch me, with God's help!

Singular

2011-08-25T19:14:00.001+10:00

So lost, so painful.
Nobody understands.
What can I do?

Dream

2011-08-23T15:12:00.003+10:00

Last night was really a hard night for me, first time since the break up. I was already letting go until I had the realisation, then everything just flowed back. Just like that. It seems like I'm just beginning to let go. It feels like we just broke up. I still can't get my head around all of these, so much has changed. With no feelings left for me, I can't ask for anything, everything's just memories, bitter sweet.

Had a dream last night, could remember every single detail. Somehow some of us came to my house in singapore to have some lesson. I looked around and realised that A was missing. So I asked, "Where's A?", someone replied, "She cut herself and was bleeding so J took her to the hospital." And then I said, "A's bleeding and NOBODY TOLD ME???" then that random person just shrugged her shoulders, as if telling me why should people tell me if A's bleeding, she's nobody to me now. And then after that I just rushed out of my house, headed for my car and drove off, wanting to find her asap. Woke up after that, with that bitter feeling still lingering in me. I can't protect/take care of her anymore, can I?

Loneliness' creeping in...actually, it's taking over blatantly and I can't do anything about it.

心痛比快樂更真實　愛為何這樣的諷刺
我忘了這是第幾次　一見你就無法堅持
孤獨比擁抱更真實　愛讓人失去了理智
會不會是我太自私　拒絕更寂寞的日子
放不開　也看不見未來
難道這種不完美　才是愛情真實的樣子

分生

2011-08-23T13:27:00.001+10:00

张惠妹 - 分生

作词：姚若龙 / 作曲：郑楠

一个我像不会累一直往前
一个我动弹不得伤心欲绝
我不确定几个我住在心里面
偶尔像敌人偶尔像姐妹

一个我在网路上朋友一堆
一个我在房间里独自面对
灰色的音乐塞满黑夜 High的像麻醉
好让翻搅的胃安静一点忘了全世界

分裂前的热泪分裂后的冷眼
越爱谁越防备像只脆弱的刺猬
分裂中的心碎分裂后的假面
不快乐不伤悲情绪埋藏成了地雷等待爆裂

一个我相信用心会被感觉
一个我大喊真心会被欺骗
开始的热烈不停奉献后来剩决裂
谎言吞噬了心带来刺痛撕裂的蜕变

分裂前的热泪分裂后的冷眼
越爱谁越防备像只脆弱的刺猬
分裂中的心碎分裂后的假面
不快乐不伤悲情绪埋藏成了地雷等待爆裂

分裂前的热泪分裂后的冷眼
越爱谁越防备像只脆弱的刺猬
分裂中的心碎分裂后的假面
不快乐不伤悲情绪埋藏成了地雷等待爆裂

2011-08-22T23:44:00.000+10:00

Facade

2011-08-22T15:49:00.001+10:00

I am feeling quite down. Yes, I'm letting go, but it's really hard to not grieve over it. It feels like nobody can really understand, sigh. Saw zh and bunch today, remembered that A told me that she's having lunch with a group as well, so I pretended that I didn't see them. However, the queue at the pavilion was too long so I decided to leave, but zh and dk caught me. Dk wanted me to join them for lunch, I saw A's bag on one of the chairs there (shes probably buying food downstairs), didn't feel like joining them and facing her, it'll just make me even sadder, so I told dk that it's ok i'm going home, i wonder if he could tell that I wasn't alright at all. I walked down and saw A and J queueing up for salad, I hurried past them, didn't really want them to see me. Sigh. On my way down, I think I sorta teared a bit at the thought of her still being surrounded by so many friends in the same course and I don't really have anyone around me now, nobody understands anw. Can one really let go of a rls that quickly? Zero feelings now? sigh, letting go is harder than i thought it was. Has she ever loved me before? Or am I only the man who loves her?

I'm smiling. Am I really?

The End...The beginning

2011-08-18T21:32:00.000+10:00

I've tried, but failed. But the point is, I tried, so I have no regrets.

Moving on...

I guess not...

2011-08-18T10:04:00.001+10:00

Sigh

In retrospect

2011-08-18T00:45:00.000+10:00

Looking back, I really had been too pushy and demanding, was I the one who pushed her away. She was asking me over and over again if we had made the right decision, I said yes over and over again without hesitance, little did I realise that it was me who was too idealistic.

Did I miss out on a possibly great rls? Is there turning back? sigh.

Burnt

2011-08-14T14:42:00.000+10:00

Warning: Eat at your own risk...

Got burnt on Friday on my philtrum and lower part of the nose by the juice inside the 生煎包 from wang wang dim sum... I was already careful trying to bite a small hole on e side first before eating the bao so that the juice won't squirt out. However, there was already a hole on the other side (which shouldnt be there in the first place, I don't know why it's there) and all the hot sizzling boiling juice squirted onto my philtrum and nose... Well, it wasn't exactly very painful but it made me tear and sweat a lot, must be the receptors being sensitised. And yeah, there are burnt patches around those areas now, hopefully I don't need skin graft or anything like that...

Anw, the fire chicken was really very spicy, I was sweating like crazy while eating them, but I could take the spice, but maybe my sweat glands couldn't, lol! Ice skating that followed was quite fun too, watching twh and ranyta trying to learn how to skate, haha. I can still rmb the first time I learnt how to roller blade in HCI...

I still can't accept that it has to come to this...oh well

Silence

2011-08-13T00:00:00.000+10:00

So it's really happening, the dao stage. Didn't even say bye to each other, walking our separate ways. I guess this is how things are going to be from now on. Jo asked me if I have gotten over her or not, but I couldn't give her a straight yes or no, it's more complicated than that I guess. I just don't know what to think of her now and I don't feel like finding out either. I just feel that she doesn't bother to put in effort for this friendship (if I can even call it one) so yeah, it's best if we just proceed on with the dao stage. This seems like a deja vu, but I can't salvage the situation now, I've done all I can.

Anyhow, had a really "holy" day today. Did one to one with Lugan, even before I could get back to my room after sending him off, Ethan called me and we commenced our Book Club immediately after that. And after that we headed off for BS dinner and then had BS. No wonder I feel so mentally drained now, haha, God's word is never easy to ponder upon:P

I can't see myself falling for anyone, have I lost faith in love?

Tired

2011-08-12T00:57:00.000+10:00

Why did I feel so tired today? hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm...

Anw, had a nice chat with twh last night, talking abt proposal daisakusen. haha, if we can make changes to our past, what would we change? Interesting topic;)

Somehow, I feel that something's missing in my life, and I can't bring myself to be genuinely happy, but I don't know what it is, sigh... God, please show me the way, help me to find joy in You alone.

I may appear to be a joker, someone who's always filled with laughter and happiness, but who knows if i'm truly happy or not, thats the irony about jokers, they may not be happy themselves. I don't think anyone here in Sydney can crack me up like Pak (I know I've said this quite a few times, oh well).

人 群中 哭著 我只想变成透明的颜色

我再也不会梦 或痛 或心动了

我已经决定了 我已经决定了

我 静静 忍著 紧紧把昨天在拳心握著

而回忆越是甜 就是 越伤人了

越是在 手心留下 密密麻麻 深深浅浅 的刀割

我不是真正的快乐 我的笑只是我穿的保护色

我决定不恨了 也决定不爱了

把我的灵魂关在永远锁上的躯壳

这 世界 笑了 於是我合群的一起笑了

当生存是规则 不是 我的选择

於是我 含著眼泪 飘飘荡荡 跌跌撞撞 的走著

我不是真正的快乐 我的笑只是我穿的保护色

我决定不恨了 也决定不爱了

把我的灵魂关在永远锁上的躯壳

我不是真正的快乐 我的伤从不肯完全的愈合

我站在你左侧 却像隔著银河

难道就真的抱著遗憾一直到老了 然后才后悔著

我值得真正的快乐 我应该脱下我穿的保护色

为什麼失去了 还要被惩罚呢

能不能就让 悲伤全部 结束在此刻 重新开始活著

Friends

2011-08-10T17:23:00.001+10:00

What are friends?

To me, friends are ppl who will not constantly face the fear of saying the wrong things to e other person in case he or she flares up.

Am I even a friend now? Harsh words and cold attitude, I don't think you treat other people like that.

I feel that this friendship is one-sided as well, I've been trying far too much to maintain a normal friendship, but your consistent cold attitude is not helping at all.

I've tried, and from now on, I will not be a foolish man anymore.

Hi, bye.

Closure, thanks to...

2011-08-10T02:08:00.000+10:00

180 degrees' change in attitude

Nice

Ear worm

2011-08-09T17:57:00.000+10:00

不要你什么

只要你记得

谁曾是你最依偎的那个

那个人是我也许走远了

 为了看你多一次微笑我什么都舍得

road trippin' 09

2009-10-18T11:39:00.000+11:00

The road trip was fantastic. Perfect mansion, perfect cars, perfect company(: We had lots of good food (in fact too much,lol),

went dolphin watching,

sand boarding,

wine and cheese tasting

and peaceful beach walks...

Now back to school days, I feel that i'm slacking too much, haha, but i'm enjoying it alot!:D Need to concentrate now though, assignment, project, EOC exam, EOY prac exam...LET'S GO!

resolutions?

2009-09-25T23:49:00.000+10:00

I dislike rules, restricting myself and giving myself rigidity in life is the last thing i want to do. So how about resolutions? Don't they sound like just another set of rules for me to follow? yeah they do help people to achieve their goals somehow, but just sticking to it then where is the fun? Do it because you believe in it, which doesnt make it a resolution anymore because it comes naturally. So i don't set resolutions for myself under any circumstance, I only reflect, see where i should improve on and just do it, there are no rules laid down.

road trip coming...hope everything'll turn out fine, it's gonna be a blast:D

Closure

2009-09-20T23:41:00.000+10:00

My feelings and thoughts,
never told to anyone (except him whos oversensitive)
they are my honest words and feelings through all these that have happened
I guess i shouldn't assume too much about the meaning of physical company
All will be put behind with this closure, I just hope that the new start will not give me a de javu of those feelings...

Life

2009-09-20T00:25:00.001+10:00

On my own from the start anyway,
few understand
few care
Welcome to my life.

Updates

2009-09-02T22:07:00.000+10:00

Gosh, my blog seems super out-dated...
exam is next thurs, i shouldn't be here typing my blog entry...but i feel the need to update some stuff for myself to look back in the future and laugh, haha.

Today i had my first experience of interviewing a patient ALONE! On top of that i have my attached doctors watching me from the side...that's super stressful i must say...Oh and to add on to that, the patient i interviewed was actually getting ready to be discharged, so he was not exactly the most patient patient (no u r not having double vision, i typed it twice). I managed to pull it off somehow but though stressful, i actually learnt quite alot from it because usually we do it in groups and there's no pressure/responsibility carried since any mistakes get shared, haha. Dr. Clea was nice enough to bring chips and chocs for our last session for this course ( even though the girls did not really touch the food, i was the glutton relatively, haha).

Life is really alot about choices, and i'm glad of my choices (allowed me to see clearly the true colour of some people in the process), thank God, for the consequences otherwise would be unimaginable...

kk, back to mugging...even though i'm not really feeling the stress...this is bad!:p

broccoli's update

2009-07-29T17:31:00.000+10:00

School has started already, another round of assignment/project/exam...oh well, routine but manageable (i hope:p)

For those who read this blog and do not know that i changed my hair style, yeah, i permed and cut it. I am getting a hang of styling it as days go by, it looks kinda cool at times, but looks kinda messy at times too. Oh well, i'm just waiting for it to grow longer and see what will I look like...hmmm, probably an enlarged/mutated broccoli in Jo's eyes,lol!

Have you ever met anyone who thinks on your frequency, clicks with you and can even complete your sentences? It may sound scary initially but trust me, it's rare, very rare, and i'm lucky to have met 2 so far:D No matter how long I've not talked to him, once we talked, we clicked as if we were still eating 25cent caramel biscuits in JC yesterday. Even over msn we read each other's minds virtually.

Much has been said/thought through/clarified, everything's in God's hands now, and i trust Him totally.

Random shot i took in Singapore, p-plate on a bicycle, he must be a new cyclist...

Pure dumb

2009-07-25T13:17:00.000+10:00

This is just not my style.

stress and ego

2009-06-16T21:23:00.000+10:00

Stress has its positive and negative effects. Some people said stress results in a sense of urgency and hence higher efficacy (which means higher level of effectiveness), well it's certainly true...but when things start to get in your way while you try to attain that level of efficacy, you will not respond to them in your usual way, and that's when the negative effect of stress comes in.

However, when you are under stress and handling situation abnormally (may be better or worse depending on how one handles his situation normally), it may also have a positive side effect whereby you can actually voice you honest opinion about whoever or whatever, which may in a way be a good way to relieve your stored "opinions" about whoever or whatever and let them have a piece of your mind.

Egoism does not always equate to arrogance. Type 1: If someone who is egoistic and yet doesnt realise it, that person is simply arrogant and undesired. Type 2: If someone who is egoistic, is aware of it and even made fun of oneself for being egoistic, this egoism actually becomes sort of like a mood lightener and is not seemed as arrogance anymore. (Note. only the person himself/herself can make fun of his/her egoism, not anyone else) This may also be due to this person's high self-awareness of his own behaviour and its implications, which will add on to this person's social ability on top of his sense of humour aided by his egoism.

However, all egoistic people feel the same when someone tries to dampen their ego -- angry, disappointed (after self-realisation and found out that it's true), this is bad as one is supposed to accept others' opinions to improve oneself. (Note. type 2 egoistic people are not always right, but most of the time they are due to their high level of self-awareness)

To combine both, if you try to dampen the egoism of an egoistic person (regardless of type 1 or type 2) who is under stress, that person will be extra pissed, especially obvious in type 2 egoistic people who will not usually have such big reaction if not under stress since he/she has a very optimistic reaction to everything apparent from the fact that he/she can even make fun of himself/herself.

Coping strategy:

Calm oneself down OR

Simply do not give a damn about whoever/whatever anymore (golden standard as the preferred treatment)

(Anonymous, 2009)

summarised post

2009-05-14T15:48:00.001+10:00

It's mean quite a while since i last posted here...hmm, guess life has been really busy or i have been really lazy...

Anw, I'm finally 21...it's quite a crazy birthday...skipping the details, my room was basically cling wrapped and green-beaned (want to know what that means, ask me personally:p) thanks for those ppl who wished me happy birthday through facebook/msn/personally, really appreciated that!

Finally the real medicine course has started...BGD (beginning, growth and development) it's really quite tough since we're cycle B and we do not have the foundation like tt of our seniors, so alot of read-up has to be done by ourselves...oh well...i'll pull through...somehow...was quite stressed out last week...but now i guess i'm back to normal already...mugging here i come!

btw it's starting to get abit frustrating, grrrrr.......

Sexuality

2009-04-15T22:43:00.001+10:00

Half of the Easter hols week has just passed, i'm totally enjoying it...but i did not mug anything yet! this is bad...but still i need to blog about the church camp i had, which was totally enriching.

Last weekend, i went for church camp...we had 4 days 3 nights intensive study on sexuality...from really general picture about man and woman to really sensitive details like pornography and masturbation (sorry for the language if you can't take it, but there's nothing wrong to talk about it as long as you do not think dirty;)) anw yup, i learnt most on the issue of Christian dating, a fantastic workshop given by e sweet couple johnny and joyce. Learnt so much about it and especially on the issue of Christian and non-Christian dating...I know of some of my friends out there facing this issue, some are even very devoted christians, which is why i paid extra attention during this workshop and asked everything i need to know to be able to help my friends facing this problem. If there is another thing that i must say that i got out from this camp, it's the bond. I got to know many more people and got v close to my BS ppl...I looked forward to having BS with them every morning man...i felt that i learnt much more and had more fun when doing bs compared to the talks i attended during the camp. There is also some differences i found between church camp and medcamp... in church camp, if ppl dunno u, they will make an effort to come over and know you and just make you feel at home in case you feel that you are new and friendless. in medcamp, we dun really interact w each other unless necessary. In medcamp, nobody cares whether u r coming back to slp or not, they just off the light when they're sleeping regardless of whether it may b too dark for e ppl slping in e same room when they come back later. in churchcamp, on one of the nights when i slp first, i didnt off e light even though i was slping on e upper decker and light was really dazzling me cuz i noe e room will too dark for movement if i off e lights. I was quite touched during the last night when i went back at 5.30am which was super ultra late, my room was brightly lit, with 3 of my roommates slping under e bright lights. (thanks, boon, wen hao, mike) oh and this camp is actly an eating camp also, 6 meals a day...felt so fat aft the camp, sighhhhhhh

oh and at the hostel i am living at currently, we even formed sorta like a prayer group among the singapore med yr1s here...it's pretty cool, it's like a big accountability group which we can rely on...we haf singspiration and shared prayer pointers every week...tomorrow i'm gna share with them what i have learnt during the church camp, hope it will be useful for some of them!

3monkeys pub is quite good apparently (if you dun mind e weird smell of dirty carpet floor) gd live band and gd hip hop music for dancing while e live band took intermissions...i shall visit there again...oh and coogee today was really fun man! was quite mesmerised by the big waves they have at the coogee beach...got pretty wet, but too bad i didnt haf my swimming gears w me, if not i would've swum today. I shall not mention who fell down in the sea while trying to reach for her toes,lol! oh and we found a pretty nice and hidden place to swim just beside some huge boulders near the beach...next time shall swim there man!!! today was fantastic, gd company, nice weather, sunny and windy, relaxing on e grass simply rox. after exam, shall go again(:

sorry arh, no pics cuz i no camera and i dun haf transfer wires for my hp, so yeah...my camera coming this weekend...after that can start taking pictures again! haha. okok i shall attempt so start mugging le...

Autumn

2009-03-23T23:18:00.000+11:00

The fact that i havent updated for so long is either cuz i am too busy or i am just too lazy...e truth is...BOTH! anw yea, i have tons of assignments to do and i dun even have time to revise my lecture notes (although all the snrs said it's foundation...study is not a word in the dictionary).

Anw, generally i have settled down already, so i am just going to school as per normal and trying to cope with the workload...i am so happy when i finished my 2000word essay on saturday...so basically i slacked my sunday and today away...which is damn shiok comparing to many others who're still doing their assignment cuz they are too distracted the past few days...My friends said i am quite weird and scary when i am under pressure, lol, i would like to observe myself if possible man...

alot of my friends they webcam every night and still feel homesick...i haven't seen my parents for almost a month already...but i did talk to them either thru msn or phone, but i dun really feel homesick...dunno y. My mum said something that made me feel very touched today.

Mum: I still clean your room every week
Me: Why? it's not even dirty since nobody's using it!
Mum: yeah i know it's not dirty, but i just want to clean it so it will feel as if you are still around and using it so that i won't feel so sad
Me: -speechless-

I dunno if i can do it while i was young but now, "i love you" just cant seem to pop out from my mouth easily, but i really do love my family alot, i just dun show it so obviously...ok now i am feeling homesick:P

anw i am also slowly learning to cook, wish me luck, mb next time i go back singapore i can cook for whoever that dares to eat, wahaha.

oh on a random note, my school has its own club (clubbing, not chess clubs) and pub on campus, cool right, haha...k, thats all for now, will update more when theres time...oh i attended medcamp, not worth my 180bucks, damn.

P.S. Autumn has come, but not cold enough, sian.

farewell sg, hello aust

2009-02-21T00:39:00.000+11:00

it's been a really great farewell for me, in fact too great. God, thank you for all the friends i have around me...feel really loved (not in a gay manner). end of post.....NOT haha bet u tot for a moment it's gna b a short and boring post whereby a thousand word is squeezed into 2 sentences huh...

ok group by group (not in any order).

Churchies

Thanks for the loafers u guys bought for me...really didnt expect to get it from u guys...i tot i was gna like just bomb my wallet over those, haha, so it's a really present surprise, thanks! anw the last sunday wasnt really sad somehow, mb i'm just too happy to leave u guys....JUST KIDDING! during the so called farewell lunch aka celebration for my absence tts gna come, i am sorry to the 2 side tables, didnt really talk to u guys, in fact i didnt even talk to the far end of my own class' table, but u guys shld noe, my love's floating all ard;);) Thanks everyone who came down to send me down at the airport also, really didnt expect such a huge crowd to come, haha, sorry again that didnt get to talk to u guys too...my luggage weight exceeded and we had to bargain for damn long to get it passed and thus i have no time for everyone of my friends! oh well...but at least a pic was taken...and to each and everyone from church, thanks for the great fellowship, esp my class ppl and cg mates...thanks for enduring all the crap and nonsense i spout out every now and then,lol!

Army

thanks bing shao for organising the farewell...sry couldnt make it for those farewell meetups u planned, but thanks alot for e effort man...yup...some of my dear sergeants came, congrats again for ORD-ING! now u have total freedom and can have hair as long as mine and BS;);)anw verne got this damn cool camera that can develop picture on the spot one, damn zai...oh and my guards specs came too, thanks jojo for organising it...and jacob!! y u late! lol i oni saw u from the glass after i went in, hahaha sry if u feel that u have wasted ur trip...but actly it's nt really wasted, at least u c my handsome face, u can go show off to ur frens now, tell them u saw david chen's face b4 he flew off, they will be damn jealous. HAHA. just wanna say, army wouldnt be bearable without all u guys, so thanks alot man for everything for the past year, i know i may not have been the most professional and on PC, but who cares, that's nt who i really am anw, SO ACCEPT IT, lol!

Tian Tang

next up, my tian tang brothers...haha it's been ages since we met up la!!!everybody's busy with his own life perhaps...but seriously, thanks alot for coming down to send me off...and if u guys come over in june, dun worry, my holidays are starting in3rd week of june, so ya...i will try my best to show u guys ard if u guys come! thanks ph for organising this farewell! as well as being my appointed professional cameraman for the night, lol! oh and nf...u're v lucky to have ying as ur gf...make sure u treat her well ya (i noe u will) if not i'll box u!

Thailand OCIP+Pak

lol this is a funny combi...but who cares...pak can mix with any group, cuz hes v socialble,lol. anw thanks aaron for organising the farewell davidchen superband meetup at ur house when we played guitar hero from 4pm-2am, abit insane, my hands were practically useless for the next 2 days...but yeah...appreciate it, really...thanks, wh and royston for always coming for the meetups and now e farewell...as well as xh, haha, u guys are really the one that bothered to keep the links in this Thai OCIP group working...and i appreciate that, really, hope when i'm back, we'll meet up again to challenge Aaron in expert mode, lol! oh and pak...dunno if u will read my blog since u r chionging ur lvl100 in atlantica/throwing molotovs at teammates while waiting in saferoom and manually creating 250hordes/aspiring to be a full-time all-star nerd of the creation. Anw, thanks alot for the treat at billy bombers which i have eaten for the 3rd time for farewell treat, but ya, nv fails to enjoy the outing w u...so far i think u r e oni guy that can keep me laughing thruout our meeting, keep it up man, and as for ur personal life... haha, u better heed my advices man...and yeah looking forward to seeing u in april, u said u wanna come over if the air ticket is less than 5 bucks rite? ya i got it for u at a discount...4.99 oni, and it comes with free pandan cake and techno music, gd buy ya?;) and yup, ur hair is getting really nice, have more confidence in urself in wadeva u do ya, cya ard!

Fantasix

Dance rox, and u guys are the ones that cnfrms my belief in it. Thanks Kegan for organising the farewell K, although it's super ex, lol. and yup...nowadays it's usually fantasix-2, since mich is super busy and germ is overseas...but well, we still enjoyed ourselves whenever we met up, and yea, u guys are the bunch of ppl that i really enjoy k-ing with the most...no out of tune ppl, no mike hoggers, and can harmo spontaneously, haha. can sing and can dance, fantasix rox man, meet up again when i'm back ya! and kegan, jiayou, go get a hot jap gf in japan!!!

Classmates

alright, i dunno who organised the farewell but i guess u guys love me too much so just came and realised many other classmates came too, HAHA. ya thanks for coming man, although nd's complaining in his blog nv really toked to me...but seriously, nt my fault...wanna blame, blame the authors who wrote my med books, who ask them write so much until the book so thick until become so heavy...and yingggggg, now oni left u in sg le, take care k...i noe nf will take gd care of u, haha. zong, gd luck in edinburgh, dun die of coldness, i'll challenge u to ur med skills next time, c who zaier;) steffi, thanks for coming also, haha, my coooooolest junior! awx, gd luck with getting a gal soon, lol, an attempt to prove that u r nt gay;) and tf, gd job in getting the place in uni, haha, have more confidence in yourself!!! these....are part of the comrades that survived As with me...

last but not least, thanks those ppl who didnt come for the farewell but sent me sms-es/wall msges! thanks for at least bothering to let me noe that u noe that i noe that u noe that i noe that u knew that i was leaving! haha!

Presents

Photo from the cool camera of Verne

Video made by Fantasix

Card From Yingggg

Card from Dell that entertained me for 2 mins

Card From Daniel

alright guys, u guys are seriously v free to read e post till this far, whoever's reading it, since u r so free, mb u can count the number of thanks i used in this post;) winner gets to know how tasty the black forest cornetto ice cream they gave as dessert on SQ plane, lol. Anw A380 is really different from the rest of the SQ planes i have taken before...they have bigger screens for movies as well, hehe.

P.S. Just a random note, do i really look so young? i was drinking the singapore sling on the plane...and one air stewardess came over and asked me how old i am...weird man...mb she just wanna c if i was e right age for her;) sry...i dun take too old gals:D

will update more on aust once i'm free again...here e internet pays by per mb, sian man, i am too used to using unlimited in sg! needa find a way to tap,hehehe...nites everyone! it's 2am here alr!

no updates

2009-02-05T15:57:00.001+11:00

yoyo everyone, okok since by popular demands of 4 ppl, i shall update even though i have really nth much to update...
okok, currently i am just waiting to go over to unsw and start my uni life...i am more or less settled for everything, including accomodation, thank God!!! and i didnt get a new hp, just settling with w980 first which is my mum's one and she doesnt even use a phone for all e special functions so she gave it to me since my dad's 500 bucks voucher can oni b used in sep...
oh and i only left 2 weeks in singapore...so...ppl who wanna meet up with me pls ask me out!!! haha, currently my whole of next week is free, this is week is more or less filled up...thanks aaron wong for organising the farewell party for me!!! as well as the class bbq which is to celebrate nd's bdae and bern, nic and my departure,tsktsk. ok, now i just hope that my other grps of frens will like plan sth next week to meet up or sth (if not i will really bore to death)...i got quite a few in mind actly, but i am just too lazy to plan so ya...i'll just wait...maybe nth will come also,lol. hey but ying2, if u c this...let's meet up next week ya, see u're so special i mentioned ur name only, haha. (nf dun get wrong idea arh) oh and maybe theres a peanut party for me organised by jh,hahaha, hope i survive that one..kk, enuf of random updates...when i get over to aust, i will upload more pics taken there (hope i wun be too lazy to just heck it).

good luck, have fun and see you again~

kypd

2009-01-04T02:57:00.000+11:00

had another kypd-p-less outing today...same old spot, same old food...we found a starbucks kiosk below the bridges! nt a bad place...well, it just feels like even if we didnt talk for quite sometime or what, as long as we meet up, we talk as if we're meeting everyday man, we can relate quite well...

after this time, i guess we're really seperated man...at most meet once/twice a year from now on...kypd spread across the world...gdgd, we haf branches all over e world, australia, singapore, uk, canada...and some connections to china and taiwan too...not bad not bad,haha. oh kim's gna come visit me in sep, i'm waiting!

i think this is the best taken pic of the night...at least my smile wasnt fake(:

wu nai

2008-12-31T02:29:00.000+11:00

Shes not spontaneous, shes so conservative...and she judges ppl by her own standards and biasness. she said i'll be wasting her money when i haven even started studying. she said i alw argue as if i have no fault but shes actly doing the same tts y our arguments are alw heated up. theres so much more i wanna complain abt...but the fact is she still loves me.

btw today was fun, we shld haf it again.

random

2008-12-27T18:19:00.000+11:00

Life's great, thank God really for everything...my license especially, although i got 16 points due to me forcefully change lane and causing other vehicles to slow down,lol.

oh and diplomacy is really fun, but esther's right, too much of it makes it sian...especially when u are in the winning alliance in every round, haha. it's true that one may not always want to be in the winning team...the thrill of fighting the stronger ones can be unbeatable sometimes...comparing to being in the winning team and everything need not be worried for, which gets boring after awhile...coming to think of it, it's like studying...chinese high, hci, my life's seemingly pathed out, i do not need to worry much...but where is the thrill? comparing A and B when ppl are competing to just get into the school? coming back to diplomacy...finding the right ally is important, am i right, jh, ny, esther mb?;)

recently i've been meeting up with my church buddies a lot, it's something that i can't get sick of...it's not like those other friends outside u have who may complain when meet up too often...in fact we were all quite happy about it and even quoted hebrew's tms verse...those who dunno which one...tsktsktsk, even i noe, how can u duno?lol. These are the bunch of friends that you will always have regardless of which stage of life u r at...unlike schs...i bet most of u haf not kept in contact with all ur pri sch mates? ya, tts just an eg. christmas is over...and this is the first time i wrote like almost 40 christmas cards for the ppl in church...all personalised one, tts y took me like a few hours...haha.

before

After

We've really changed...and so much closer now:)

SMA

2008-12-25T01:23:00.001+11:00

some ppl think i am writing my blog in a too detailed manner, more like a primary school journal...haha, well, actly i tot so too, after reading some of my other fren's blogs...so ya, i guess from now on, less on details, more on feelings...

well...getting my christmas cards written now...u noe sometimes...when u tease someone and tt person seriously defends himself/herself, i find it really funny but cute at the same time..haha...

k, needa get back to my cards now...hail, SMA (singapore mahjong association)

Finally somewhat eventful life

2008-12-22T17:58:00.001+11:00

The past 2 weeks have been really busy but very fruitful to me...ok, i had church camp, started my probation working at Lay's clinic, went for Aaron Wong's Christmas Party, 5Days Before Christmas(5dbc), had stayover at Sherman's house...

Church Camp
1st day, night actually, when the camp started by me leading for worship...I felt myself quite unprepared for this because some of the songs i was leading i could not even remember how to sing the verse! oh and i was supposed to like kickstart the camp, but i did not exactly hype the atmosphere up...when i ended with Amazing Grace with its amazing 8 verses...same tune different lyrics...everybody was bored out by it i think...i could see gerald yawning, oh well...anw after that was ice breaker game and we had to tie balloons to our feet and each team( BK, LJS, KFC and MAC) had to send representatives out to burst the balloons of the other team...that's when jh and i went wrestling on the ground and we both got abrasion on our feet...mine...one spot...his...as if went through war...and after that we had our name tags done up...

and that's all i remembered for first nite, oh that's also when i found my nua buddies that brought me great fun throughout the camp...

2nd day we had our first morning exercise...dan the man( as he wanna be called but i shall refer as dan from now on) who also happened to be our camp commandant led us in 5BX which included 20 push ups and even planks and some other exercises...ok la...i had nt been pumped for quite sometime anw... after that we had our speaker session by James on James...basically the book of James is about double-mindedness and most of us are in guilt of it as we could not bare to let go of worldly wisdom and commit ourselves fully to God's wisdom...James is a pretty good speaker i must say, although as days went by alot of ppl started to fall aslp during his session...We had lunch provided by LJ and Esther, 2 muscle women trained by all the chicken rice, horfun and fried rice they carried for us throughout the camp...THANK YOU!!! i found myself eating quite alot every single meal together with my usual clique in church, sherman, ny, jh. anw...we had indoor games whereby there were several stations we had to complete...we lost 3 members right from the start as they were in the comm and had to be station masters...but anyhow we still got second overall for indoor games...here are some of the pics:

The sian Esther

The classic picture of the happy family...look at the gal in blue...supposed father acting macho by choking the supposed son in his/her hand

The game where Belly answered Thomas Edison invented telephone

Sherman's station...guys gals segregated

Much Better...

The Game in which i was the pro juggler

After the Game

The filling up the bottle game

Belly with her cramped fingers

After the game, me ambushed by Belly, got wet not by the game, but by my very own comrade

3rd day was quite normal...we had our sunday service in camp tshirt...everyone was dozing off i could sense...Jh thought i was slping when i bowed my head down...he was dreaming...cuz at that point of time we were praying...and Sherman started telling me werid stuff like "those balloons on the wall make very good pillows" it's what happens when ur body is under great pressure from fatigue,lol...after that we had another speaker session, needless to say...slpy...and it was raining so we could nt have our outdoor game, so played captain's ball instead...the floor was wet, so everybody did not dare to run too fast...and something terrible happened...lj fell down from her chair while i was blocking her...it was a painful fall butt first...i felt SOO BAD, so i told her for the rest of my life...i'll...(wanna noe what i said? ask me personally, wahahaha) anw the game continued and we had this workshop at night which i thought was quite interesting...girls and guys were seperated...girls were given workshop on gossips and how to deal with it and i heard they felt it was very useful...for guys it was how to be a christian guy and we talked about all those stuff that we dun usually talk abt like sex, having a non-christian gf and some other stuff...we learnt quite alot on what to pray for and what is the right thing to do...and that marked the end of 3rd day...

4th day we had our last speaker session...which was also when i talked to James personally and absorbed alot on how to deal with our material desires and stuff...anybody interested can come ask me...i'll tell you what i can! anw after that was mega games...in other words the amazing race... i thought it was quite short as we oni needa find 4 checkpoints...i remembered planning the amazing race for my army commanders... we had 10 checkpoints per group and all different one, so had 40 in total...but anw...i am lazy to post pictures for this race so please go check my facebook for more pictures...den came night when everybody really enjoyed themselves from the night game...UNDERGROUND CHURCH! ok the game was new to me...but i was given a very important role, the pastor...we're in the envt whereby preaching was not allowed...so everything was done secretly...there're altogether 3 pastors...2 spies and the rest are all non-christians...the pastors had to convert ppl without the spies noticing...the spies' identity are unknown, so nobody knew who were the spies...so if the spies attended the preaching session, he could tell on the preacher by smsing to the game master and game master will inform the preacher to proceed to the torture chamber which included harsh punishments like pouring worms all over you, splashing water at you and whipping you with a balloon...so when the game started...i dragged lijun with me, she thought i was a non christian too...but anw we teamed up and did not allow anybody to follow the 2 of us as a big group looks suspicious...so we managed to convert quite a few ppl by our hyper preaching 3 in 1. anw lijun was called down to torture chamber halfway thru the game...i felt sooooo baad again cuz she was alw with me and i was supposed to protect her since i am e pastor and i tried not to preach to any suspicious ppl like glorijoy and luke(who are the spies indeed), oh well, in the end it turned out to be the game master read the name wrongly...so lijun was not supposed to be torture...oh well....i got over the fact abt 10 secs after she got caught though, and went on to find another helper...LOL! but anw we all had lotsa fun...and i was the only pastor who did not get caught to the torture chamber...nice... and we had no lights out timing this night, so we played all sorts of games like bridge, blockers, saboteurs until 5am...

last day was just cleaning up and revealling angel mortal...but anw this camp was really fruitful...i learnt quite alot of stuff and got to know alot more people in church whom i didnt even talk to last time. looking forward to next yr's camp!

ok this post is getting really long, so i think i'll post about other events some other days...tmr's my driving test...pray hard...

More Updates

2008-11-04T21:37:00.000+11:00

ok, finally i am into my last week of NS, clearing off and leave,heh. and i got my car test date and i passed my riding assessment, things are gg smoother for me recently, thank God! tmr i am gna have my first car lesson with my so called head instructor whose car i am gna use for the test itself, so i hope it will not be too different from the intructor he gave me all these while.

Apparently the head instructor only take students when the instructors under him has taught the student everything...good that i am finally progressing until i am with the head instructor...but still i find that i took too many lessons for a private instructor...13 so far...and more to come with head instructor...may end up to be ard 19? sianz...so much money, my fren did it in 8 lessons and passed his test...oh well...i guess i should be contended now relatively comparing to my previous situation whereby i was just driving on the road over and over again, not progressing at all...and my bike lesson, i guess i was lucky to get that instructor yesterday...he told us most of us should pass as long as we dun haf any immediate failure or get too much deduction...haha...and i really passed!!!a near miss though...got 18 points...1 more pt i will fail,haha. so i passed my assessment in 2 tries!!!so happy, cuz i got friend who tried 7 times and still failing and is now quitting...and i also heard the highest record is 27 times...scary. alot of friends around me asking y am i taking riding when it's so dangerous compared to car...well...having a licence at hand is better than nothing, i am not intending to buy a bike, i am just getting the licence so that in the future if situation needs me to ride a bike at least i can ride one...yup, tts abt it for my licences updates...

oh and my uni, i finally decided to go to UNSW medicine after so long...i guess it doesn't really matter where u take our med course, as long as you do well, there will be a space reserved for u and from there is where the real journey starts...previously i was pretty stressed and stuff cuz my uni not settled, my driving test date not confirmed, my riding assessment not passed...lotsa uncertainties, and i hate that feeling seriously...but now i begin to have a clearer picture of everything...

well, currently i am busy with making video for my army friends...we had this cohesion whereby we played amazing race...and now i got all the pics and videos and i needa make it into a dvd so that i can give it to my army friends as some sorta ORD gift for them( actly it's requested by my csm...) but anw i tot of power point photo montage...but then how to play it on a dvd player? so then i tot of just burning everything into one dvd, well that saves me alot of effort...but as a perfectionist who have lotsa time now, i decided to make it like some movie dvd...so here i am trying to become some video producer using the programs my father got as one of the free gifts from buying his video camera from SONY. well the program looks real pro, and ya...v v complicated...there's 3 programs in total, one for editting video, one for audio and one for making dvd...so basically i have to juggle among the 3, i cant just work with one...i needa make the video first, while using audio editor to edit the audio so that it can fit the video... after video is done, i will transfer it to dvd maker so that ppl can watch it on a dvd player...it looks quite professional now that i am like almost half done, hope the end product will be good! but the sense of achievement is really quite great when i finished one video for one of the teams...

well, i guess thats all for now...will update again soon...hmm...i still haven't found out how to add pictures,lol.

guess whos back!

2008-10-21T20:36:00.000+11:00

hmm, i decide to start blogging again, after seeing my fren's blog. He is in army too and having the same appointment as i am holding and yet he can blog constantly with pictures uploaded too,haha, i guess being busy is just an excuse man...

anw, i am gg to sleep like real soon because tmr is my riding assessment/lesson 5 and i want to maintain my one-lesson-one-try standard that i have been maintaining for the past 2 lessons. In case anyone doesnt noe wad i am talking about, i am learning riding motorbike now and it's not like a car's lesson, every lesson is like a test, you have to pass it to be able to book the next lesson to learn new stuff, so yeah.. i have been quite lucky to get lenient and nice instructors for past 2 lessons that i am able to pass in my first try!:D yup, so i am gg to sleep early tonite and have more energy tmr, not oni for the assessment, i got one busy day tmr. morning riding, then after that needa book in at Tekong for my ORD check up, then after that bk out again for my driving lesson at night...travel here and there, money money money...

k, will update more when i'm free...needa go find out how to upload pics again, i already forgot how...:P

reflection

2008-08-03T19:36:00.000+10:00

i am just gna post it here cuz i bet nobody comes here anymore, so it's ok for an emo post like this, but for those who have stumbled upon this blog cuz he/she has clicked on the wrong link or maybe just feel like coming here randomly, u're in luck, get to know the latest update of the inner-me.

have i really changed for e worse? how much have i changed ever since i graduated? is it me who has changed or it's just the people around me have changed? i can sense some change in me in terms of how i value frenships...dunno y, i just didnt bother at all to even make the effort to bring a camera during outings which i usually do, i just wanna get it over and done with and back to my only-army life, but it's nt like i really enjoy army life, i guess i am just a lazy bum who cant be bothered with anything except for e compulsory thing in my life which is army cuz it's compulsory...sometimes i feel quite bad about all these thoughts cuz those were friends so close to me last time...yes it's true our busy lives made us distant and maybe tts y i didnt bother abt it anymore, but can we blame it on time alone? i think i shld take e blame man, it's me who didnt bother to keep us close, it's me who shut e world out? (isit this serious? nooo i am not becoming an eccentric person who shuts e world out) even andy sometime i couldnt be bothered with, sry andy for saying ur name here in e blog but u r e oni one who knows exactly y i have all these thoughts now so i guess it's ok, as for my other friends i wun mention ur namess.

anw nd was like my closest fren in jc but even now sometime i would just turn him down when he asked me for outings even though i am totally free(sry pal), but it's partially cuz my mum nags at me whole day long non stop abt uni and stuff and whenever i went out she would just complain non stop and said i shld give a tot abt my future but i haf alr settled so much, i guess there's no enough in her dictionary and i must stay at home whole day and not using computer but get crazy over uni application. before starting to apply she would nag me to apply, after applied she would nag me to check results which obviously wouldnt be released just becuz i sent a mail requesting for it( a ridiculous idea by my mum which she would haf denied anw if she see this). after the uni offered me she would nag me to go try applying other unis in case my uni not the best( then WHY DID I APPLY IT IN E FIRST PLACE???), i think after i have applied all e other unis offering med she would nag at me about trying to apply other courses or start reading up on uni syllabus...HELLO???IS THERE AN END TO ALL THESE???even today i went out for e first time during this weekend and she was quite pissed abt it when i came back home for dinnner...i guess she never would know abt all those thoughts i had in my head whenever i am out"would my mum be angry again just becuz i am nt at home?(which she does most of the time, it's not just me imagining)" "i needa rush home for dinner, in case my mum's angry again(u can ask all my frens, i alw wanna rush home for meals so many times tt i am like a ps king, and yet she thinks i dun give a damn abt spending time with family)" she is really ridiculous at times, but shes my mum, but please, i am an adult already, i can plan, i can think for my own, i am an officer for a reason, i CAN PLAN AND ORGANISE MYSELF!so please stop treating me like some small kid who cant be bothered with his life and is just wasting his 2 years in army away. i didnt do it in front of u doesnt mean i didnt do it, i didnt tell u doesnt mean i did not think through before, so please stop assuming and get urself frustrated and then blaming me for making ur blood boil.

ok, enuf of sidetrack, this post is supposed to be about me and my attitude. yes i just got to know today tt actly some of my frens told my other frens tt i haf changed for e worse, it's even hard to like me as a fren now, tt really saddened my whole day, am i really tt bad now? to guys i am just someone who complains whole day and dun give a damn abt them, to gals i am just some ungentlemanly inconsiderate and maybe even insensitive jerk...actly all these are relative. is it me who have changed or isit u who have nt caught up with me for quite sometime tt u are nt used to me anymore? i really dunno man, but i better just take it as i have changed for the worse...time to change then

these 2 years really sucked, officer so what? highest NSF pay so what? frens all drifting apart and those joy sharing moments between frens are gone, i am just a lazy loner now, hooray
i will change then, but may become some serious gentleman which is not who i really am alr, but my playful nature just isnt catchy at all now, nobody likes it. as for guys i will change for u as well, esp to my closest buddies out there, sry pals, will try my best to be bothered.

this post is getting really emo, i wonder am i just being sarcastic in rxn to the criticisms or just really really troubled by all these negative comments by my closest frens, especially those behind my back ones. nvm, time to book in...people, u can just ignore all the emo ventings, sry if u have bothered to read until this pt.

long long time ago

2008-05-02T07:35:00.000+10:00

wow, let's c who still comes here...

just wanna say army makes u abandon lotsa stuff, either forcefully or willingly, there is no choice...including this blog, abandoned for quite some time le...

well, e next time anyone c me updating mb will be when i ORD-ed le...10th nov...

finally forcing myself to blog again

2007-10-08T07:33:00.000+10:00

YOOOOOOOOOOOOO, to whoever who still checks this blog every now and then and rolls eyes when seeing the 2-mth old post again

anw yes i am back, from brunei...erm 1 mth ago?lol. army really makes me become very lazy to do anything other than slack and slack more. ppl say that jcc can make u lose at least 7kg, well, for me thats nt the case leh...i oni lost 3 kg(but i alr looked like a skeleton, if anybody wanna c ask me for the photo which i took immediately after jcc), and i gained back 5!wahaha, it's cuz of jcc that makes me think that i haf all e right in e world to just eat and eat, so that's what i did for e few days after jcc and i gained more weight that i lost in 9 days,hehehe. but dun worry, that was quite sometime ago, after gg back to ocs life in sg, my weight went back to e normal 64kg again, around there lar. well, due to some higher intent, i am not allowed to reveal anything abt jcc, so sry, i can oni give one word:hungry.

after i came back to sg, first i have to get used to e absence of pam, hp seems so lifeless nowadays, oh well, back to e old chinese high days again i guess,haha. anw since i came back to sg, there's outfield every week, not tought, just tiring and dirty. i can say i am an expert at camo now le, just treat it like u r applying facial cream, which is nt sth new to me, so ya, but no, i am not gay. and what are the outfield missions that i have went thru these few weeks? nope, cant reveal again, so yeah, just noe that my last outfield in sg in ocs was just over this week, hooray, no more outfield in sg le, so e next time i set my foot on any outfield site, i will be 2lta david,hehe.
gg taiwan next sat nite, haiz. timing quite wrong, my cousin just got married today and i can't attend her wedding, army arh...really sucks e life outta me man, i missed so many things, can't send my frens off, can't attend my relative's wedding...oh well. btw kim's also in uk le, so now oni left me and yy in sg lo, and i dun even noe if yy's leaving as well, haha shes forever changing her mind. comms ball nearing alr, my buddy's like telling me it's too late to ask after coming back from taiwan, so i am like wondering who shld i bring...oh well, i shall come up with a decision soon. all my female frens out there, just keep on praying k, hold ur hps close to u, for u may be e lucky gal that i call soon,lol, i am sooooooo ego, alright, but if i'm not then i'm nt me;) nd's also in taiwan now btw, so basically my weekends recently have been spent at home slacking...oh and i have passed all my tests in ocs alr, left ippt to get gold oni, so i am quite happy and relieved, no more obstacles,hehe.haha forgive me if u think there is no flow in wadeva i have stated above, i am just typing wadeva that came to my mind...

i hope my cousin has chosen the right guy and i wish tt her life as a wife will b a joyful and eventful one, it must feel great to be so crazily in love man.
alright, thats it for now, bb ppl, i have updated e blog due to popular demands,cheers!

-dave

2007-08-19T07:31:00.000+10:00

hey guys! i noe i have nt been updating for super long, guess i am just lazy and busy. anw gg overseas tonight for training le and i just feel like posting this song that touched me deeply and is my fav song for quite some time alr and still is! presenting to u...

非你莫屬

懂得讓我微笑的人　

再沒有誰比你有天份輕易闖進我的心門　

明天的美夢你完成

整個宇宙浩瀚無邊的盡頭　每顆渺小星球　全都繞著你走

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another long post

2007-06-26T07:30:00.000+10:00

wow, i relaised i havent blogged for abt more than a mth:P well, that shows how busy i am with army...or it just shows how lazy i am too,haha.

ok lor,backtrack all the way to dance night...well, i am quite glad to c bboy club growing...the members have increased tremendously! Pak and i both were very proud to see our juniors performing and the club we started out shining. however i think last yr's dance night was better...not because i am biased or wad, but just tat i dun really think including chinese dance is a gd idea, especially ending the whole dance night with one...last yr, we ended with a dance battle, i am sure the audience felt the concert ended on a high note...but this yr ended with a chinese dance, so i was feeling like "oh it ended alr? ok, gd job guys" and the bboy perf this yr was abit messy, partially due to too many ppl and it's kinda hard to coordinate everyone's every movement, so it's not anybody's fault, but on the whole it still looked cool.haha and for alicia, gd job, i was abt to take pics for ur that sexy dance but after the dance i realised i was too engrossed in the dance and didnt take a single pic for that dance,haha. haha i also realised felix was a sergeant last time, sergeant huang~ lol. Felix has been with us for the 2nd yr now, and i hope tat he has felt a sense of belonging to hci bboy crew alr and that he will realise himself that he is not just some random bboy on the street, he is part of the hci family alr, he is someone whom all the bboys in hci respect. I met some jnrs there too, like liwei, evonne, steffi, jess, zhang wei, yixiand of cuz clarice who performed really well that nite! i am kinda lazy to put pics here,heh, sry~

ok after that there is actly nth much lar...ok den the next big thing i remembered shld be platoon field camp...well...everyday rained...except for the day we did our digging, fortunately.anw i was appointed the defence PC, so basically i had to co-ordinate the whole defence exercise with the help of my runner and PS. because i had to dig my command post, i felt quite restricted.i could not idle ard like the rest of my platoon could, they could dig and go find others to chat for awhile before digging again, basically for them it's OTOT(own time own target) but for me once i rest ppl will start to complain saying that i was slacking, so no chance to interact with my sectionmates, thus e whole digging was quite sian for me. our digging ended up being the best among the 3 platoons, of cuz it's not due to me, it's due to the hardwork of the whole platoon, think we were e oni platoon that stayed up thru e nite to dig...heard that platoon2 after 3am there was no sound at all, nobody's digging,lol. i felt quite contended when i heard ppl like joel thanking me and telling me that i had done a good job leading the whole platoon,hwever, there are also some ppl whose names i would not want to mention that simply tot i was a lousy PC, they compared me to the cadet wing comd and said just behind my back literally(either purposely or tot that i couldn't hear) that the diff between me and him is that i cannot work or make things work but he can, oh well...i guess they haf e right to comment wadeva they want. after e digging, somebody took over to become the PC for execution of defence,haha, i did all the planning, all e admin work and all the fatigue work of digging and now somebody else took over me to execute wadeva i have prepared for, great. anw it's ok, at least now i can interact more with my close frens in e platoon. It's gd that i went to become e buddy of Wei Da, my oni HCI fren in my platoon, we were quite close due to tat. after raining in e day, the fire trench was partially flooded, gd that it's oni ankle level and not waist level, if not we would be swimming...e most memorable part while defending with wei da were the stand2s. for e first stand2, we go bored of being on alert and doing nth else, so we took out biscuits and fruitips and peach tea powder and started having a mini feast in our fire trench,heh. after we finished, just nice the instructors came to attack and the thunderflash kept on exploding, each time getting nearer to our trench, cuz our trench is at e bottom of e slope, we were super scared that e next one will simply roll into our trench and explode between us, but gd tat it did not happen:P anw after tat attack, the PC told us e instructors will attack again, so remain stand2.however, i did not think they will attack so fast, so i went back to find wei da, we laid out our groundsheet, changed socks and underwear, powder bathed, ate our dinner, had a little chat, den went to our shell scrape to slp until the next morn 6.30am when someone called our names to remind us to be in stand 2. We woke up after that to go into our trench just 5 mins b4 e instructors attacked again...hahaha, can u believe it...some ppl actly stand inside their trench the whole nite on alert while we were enjoying all these simple luxuries.XD after the defence was e attack...i was appointed the runner...y...y me again...anw i carried the signal set and rushed up the 85m tall hill with the rest of my platoon, almost died, but it was gd training, haha. basically that's all abt my platoon field camp, also e first time my LBV and long four were that dirty.

next, let's tok abt pam's bdae celebration. ying and i went to recce e ground 2 hours b4 we met pam...we found this place called the ark cafe, a place with gd atmosphere. went to pick pam up at abt 8pm and brought her to the ark. we had lotsa fun listening to the live band there playing songs that we requested, it's mostly chinese songs, so we enjoyed it alot! cuz there was oni 3 tables and 1 table left halfway, the other table was e singer's bf, so oni left our table requesting songs, so we basically got what we wanted all the time except when they did not know how to perform e song,haha. i even went up to sing yong bao while playing e guitar...was having runny nose and flu tat day so didnt sing very well, and i dunno y, mb too long nv sing le, i actly couldnt catch e first note of e song until after awhile, oh well...but i am sure e 2 gals wun mind.XD and dun worry, kim, u will join us next time k...e food there was okay, it's mostly e atmosphere and e performance that i enjoyed alot, i will visit there often next time with ppl like nd, nic, huiwen who also enjoy chinese songs:D anw hope pam did enjoy herself that nite, cuz we certainly had(:

my service term is coming to an end in like 2days time...3 mths just flew past liddat, can still rmb tat time how i dreaded coming to the tango wing, e new envt and everything, but now i think i am gna miss my sectionmates who have become quite close to me...at e same time i am also quite excited to know where i will be posted to, if i got posted to support arms then coming sunday i will be flying off to brunei le, fast yet true...will update again soon, hope i wun drag for another mth.XD haha everytime i dragged and a long post will appear, sry man, for those who have been constantly visiting my blog, it's either i dun haf anything new to entertain u all or i haf a super long post which u may get sian reading halfway cuz it's simply too long,lol
anw random fact, HI154 guys all got into OCS, hooray...

2007-05-20T07:29:00.000+10:00

no time to update...sneak preview: MOSAIC 2007 rox;)

slack week

2007-05-07T07:28:00.000+10:00

This week in ocs quite slack...labour day...den wed booked out for dentistry interview, which i think i screwed up again cuz they ask me some facts abt dentistry which i dunno and they expect me to now which i expect myself to learn during the dentistry course itself...oh well, the interviewer abit scary, she was like," You dunno abt these and u still apply for dentistry??" den i broke down and cry and tot i was done for...no la, i didnt break down and cry but i did think tt i was done for, a smile was still on my face though throughout e interview, wad else can i do right...den i had my ippt test and still didnt get gold, sianz......den thurs to sat all signals package, slack like crazy, no exercise at all...but at least it made me change my view towards signals officer, now i want to go signals instead of armours, haha, can slack more:P

anw ytd was great. went out with the lards+Aaron wong(who still doesnt wanna be recognised as lard). We basically had super long chats, it was quite fun, catching up and gossiping. We went to secret recipe to haf a drink first. I drank ice blended mocha which i tot was quite cool le, compared to aaron wong's supposedly nice drinking plain water, then wang hao ordered "english breakfast tea" wah, sound so cultured...anw dunno how aaron wong got all those supposedly juicy info abt me and alice from his MP friend, but most are inaccurate anw, or shld i say all, haha aaron, u have to believe me man, i am e one that went thru it, of cuz i noe wad happened lar! so after that wang hao left and we went to billy bombers to eat, basically it's pretty funny seeing how aaron wong wanna charge me for everything i did,lol. den we haf this super funny convo:

context: aaron wong showing us prom pics, and we came across cheng yin's one
XH: u noe cheng yin wore like some chinese lady, eh no, like er....wads that show e princess one...isit sinbad?
sarah and i look at each other...
Me: err, i think it's aladdin
XH: oops, yeah aladdin (and everyone bursts into laughter)

haha sinbad and aladdin r super different man...we also spent sometime explaining to sarah and XH what's the diff between post and rank...haha, when aaron said he can take charge of military discipline and wang hao said he can save the commandos at e war front line, i tot to myself," hmm, i can pump my man, ok, i am quite useless" haha oh well...but it's ok, as long as my pay is the highest:P we went to esplanade after dinner, not bad, then aaron wong started complaining about all the emo couples after breaking up at very young ages,haha, den he became very emo himself toking abt the blogs and msn nick names of those emo ppl,haha. i guess he will understand y they r so emo when he gets a gf himself in e near future...

i really miss talking to them, although we havent seen each other for so long or even chatted on msn, when we came tog and talked, we talked like as if ocip was ytd, nice bonds we haf there...too bad heidi wasnt there, i was hoping she will be there lor, hasnt seen her ard for so long, wonder how she looks like now, nvm, she told me she will plan the next outing, haha, i'm waiting;) and oh yeah, we discussed abt a thailand shopping trip that we want to haf at december 2008, sounds pretty cool and fun man, with aaron wong the bright mind, he can plan everything abt lodgings and transport and airfare for us, and it sounded quite affordable, looking forward to it.haha aaron was saying "tat is if we r still frens by then" lol, dun worry, as long as we meet every now and then, we will be gd frens man, so the trip shall be no prob;) (cuz e dates not confirmed, aaron actly suggested to block out the entire month beforehand just for e 5-day trip,lol, yeah rights...)

aaron seemed happy to be in mp, i am glad he is enjoying his army life now, although abit too obssessed with charging officers and officers to be,haha, and wang hao seemed quite depressed for not being able to stay on in the leadership course in commandos, but dude, dun worry man, being a commandos is alr an achievement, furthermore u r e frontline medic, singapore's future lies in ur hands man;) (if we ever haf a war that is) xh still as cheerful as alw, sometimes i wonder if she is really alw that happy or just putting up a smile cuz she doesnt want us to worry, but anw xh u shld noe by now that wadeva aaron niaoed abt u he doesnt mean it, so dun worry, u r not a stupid woman or wadsoever(: and sarah still looked like she got everything in control, no fear no trouble,haha, good for u, hope to c u in NUS as my classmate man...

alrights, this post sounds more happy than previous ones huh, haha i hope i am really this happy, so much stuff troubling me now actly...ippt, leadership test result, interview results, blah blah blah, my bravo fren actly told me that he finds me suppressing myself alot in tango wing, like so different as a person, he used to know me as the crazy guy in his section which joked ard alot, but now i am just contended staying in my room...i also dunno whether my joke will be appreciated by tango ppl or not tats y...oh well, field camp coming up, welfare field camp, cya, in 5 days time...

random thoughts

2007-04-30T07:27:00.000+10:00

army was fine...getting used to it somehow, just hope i will get my gold soon so that i can slack in bunk or play sports during ippt training sessions...i think it's quite dumb tat we booking in tonite, booking out tmr nite den book back in on tue nite again when all e rest r booking in on tue nite...

medicine interview is kinda disappointing, the first round when i got bombarded like mad...oh well, talked to sarah and yup, we shld haf simple faith and accept whatever God planned for us, if it is meant for us, God will get us in regardless of anything, if not it just means He got better plans for us, commit all these into God's hands...next up, dentistry interview, jiayou jiayou...

wad can i say arh...nowadays i am not as cheerful or as happy as during my sch days le, dunno y, or mb there r too many reasons that i can't name all. i realise i dun laugh and smile as much now, i am contended just being quiet at one side and not involved in some things that others r involved in or laughing abt, if u get wad i mean. is this called maturing? i dun think so, i think it's bad, and i dun hope to keep this up, but how? alot of things haf changed, dunno for e better or worse, but looking back at e sch days, i really still prefer those days when...nvm

anw i guess it has finally come to this stage, nvm, forget it ba, i just hate it when ppl feel tat way.

whine whine whine, tats all i can do

2007-04-22T07:26:00.000+10:00

soo long nv update this blog le, i doubt anyone still comes here nowadays man...but i'll still update anw, for my own sake:p

anw ocs is okay lar, not easy but not that tough, just tat been running alot stuff...just did my 8km run on friday, and it will go all the way to 16km throughout my service term, scary...i met their timing of 5mins per km, so i ended my run after about 40 mins, but i am among the last 10 i think, can u believe it? my whole wing is insanely fit...and only 20 people including me didnt get ippt gold in my wing...that is a very demoralising fact...can still rmb e times in bravo when i was like the 2nd best in my section...oh well

i must say it is really hard to mix in to my current new tango platoon 3. Especially after the field camp when the platoon was quite bonded, especially among the section. I tried toking to some of the ppl, but their reply are quite cold at times, like toking more to me will downgrade themselves.simple things like sitting down during a lecture, when i sat down next to a guy whom i shall not mention his name, he looked at me as i sat down, as if trying to say,"who gave u e permission to sit beside me, i dunno u, back off..." and one of the other guy in my platoon, he doesnt even bother looking at me when toking to me, he can actly walk away while i was trying to ask or say sth to him...i dunno y, y can't they make me feel more at home, y can't they accept a newcomer, not like i want to change wing, not like their good friends leaving the wing is due to me, not like i am going to break wadeva bond they haf now...life is just not very enjoyable now...i am actly deemed quiet in the platoon now.quiet, can u believe it???that is so not me, and i can't understand their sense of humour, so not funny and lame at times, but they are still laughing at those stuff...bah, tats beside the pt, i just dun really enjoy my stay now, i can only really laugh heartily when around ppl like leopard 4-ians, gautam, keith, pin yuan and pak...i dunno, am i really that bad at adapting to new environment? i hope soon enough things will change, this is so miserable, plus some other stuff that i just can't keep outta my mind even after so long, life is so...haiz.

ok, enuf whining, tmr still got essay test, go me, do ur best.

heys

2007-03-26T07:26:00.000+10:00

dun feel like blogging, will be back in 3 weeks time or more (depends on whether i feel like blogging when i am back)

-end-

blk leave

2007-03-24T08:24:00.000+11:00

alright, it has really been quite some time since i last blogged, cuz i am too busy with my 12-day freedom:p

anw firstly, pam is back! that's a gd news, KYPD is back to one piece again (although KYD often went out in e past few weeks,oops:P) one month is really quite long huh...but dun worry pam, u r not out of our lives yet(:

went out with my platoon ppl the other day, wah i really must say, CS can be so fun when u r playing with so many of ur friends altogether, the team balancing will be good and the no. of players will be just nice. had so much fun and laughter...asked them to knife fight, then all buy grenades, haha acting smart huh, then say no grenade, then CTs will buy shields,hahaha, thinking soldiers i c...

oh btw, i got into OCS!!! haha, this is so unexpected...my PC was saying what oni top 5 and a few others will get into OCS, then the other few will be ppl like Rong En, Cheng Rong, this kinda high scorers, then the rest will either be man or go sispec. so yeah, i was thinking i will most likely go sispec since i didn't exactly stand out or WAYANG in my company...really must thank God for this as this is part of His plan and i know He will walk with me thru it!:D but i think it's really not a big thing, since so many of my other friends got into OCS, and like almost my whole platoon got into command sch lar, think leadership batch is really sth...

i dunno if i shld, but i dun wanna...

POP

2007-03-14T08:22:00.000+11:00

Finally!!! BMT is over( ok not quite, tmr still got GAC cuz we missed it e other day cuz of e rain), ok, supposedly sch 2 has alr POP-ed. it's kinda fast looking back at it. The drills went surprisingly good, much better than any practices we had before. Even though it rained halfway, but i think it added on to how much we have matured as soldiers and we can brave through any weather...

ok...at least i tried.

thoughts...

2007-03-12T08:00:00.000+11:00

9 weeks seem to haf passed in a blink of an eye now as POP is nearing. yeah, i noe 9 weeks seemed forever while we were in e middle of it,haha. Leopard platoon 4 has been with me through much stuff, field camp, SIT test, SOC, IPPT, 4km, 12km, 16km, 24km route marches(which we just did on friday and to prove tat we did it just check out the almost bald guys walking down e streets these few days, walking like chimpanzees with legs wide open,lol), Leopard night, Recruit's evening, Games' Day and now finally for our last even together, POP.

i am quite glad that i didnt get any abrasions or blisters on my small toe from this 24km route march, oni haf one blister below my big toe which is nth compared to many others who are having serious abrasions now.progressive trainings really work, it's not as shag as what i tot it would be when i was doing my 8km route march. kinda fun cuz was crapping with ani all along, as night fell and we marched in darkness with only light sticks on Sergeant's SBO, we began to share ghost stories and experiences if we have...well, what can i say, we r scared but we love the thrill, yeah, basically we r mad soldiers;) after the march everyone was so shagged, but e sense of achievement was...i dunno how to say, cuz i didnt really haf it cuz i was too shagged:p that marks e end of e physical requiring activities in our BMT lives...

Leopard company has become the common enemy of school 2...they were actually doing some boo-ing cheer at our company ALTOGETHER while we marched into the parade square late for our 24km route march...well, what can i say, champions are always lonely...but ok lar, we were quite arrogant abt it, so yeah, haha, too bad lor, who ask us to win consecutively for so many years, haiz, can't help it man *shrugs* oh but i must say that ulyccis is very strong this year, won us at tug of war, so UNBA (dunno y ppl alw use imba when e right word should be unbalanced and not imbalanced), we leaned back just to hold on but they leaned back to pull, yeah...kinda expected it cuz nic, timo, qibo all these zai ppl all inside ulyccis...

It's kinda funny now that Jenson Loh has become e legend among Leopard platoon 4. It all started in field camp while we were resting in our shell scrape. Wei Lun was imitating some sergeants den i suddenly imitated the night snack Coporal (Jenson) and he tot it was pretty funny. from then on we began to imitate him every now and then, cuz his words and facial expressions are so classic:"talk talk talk, listen to RO la!" with a face with a tilted mouth,lol. we then spreaded it among our section...one day before SIT test we were the duty platoon so we were asked by Sergeant Khaliff to gather outside the store room. we were told to fill up 100jerry cans, yeah, sounded crazy but we didn't complain. then all of a sudden Jenson came from inside the store room

Jenson: *does a T-shaped cut sign with his hands and also cutting action at his neck*

Jenson:I load arh??? 100 jerry cans i load arh??? I load arh???

platoon 4: ???*whispers to each other, we nv say no wad....*

Teng Chuan (someone from platoon 4): we nv said we r not loading!

Jenson: I load arh???today only got me on duty, i load arh???

Teng Chuan: nono we will load for u...

Jenson: oh ok.*went back into store room*

Khaliff: eh no hard feelings arh~

basically that's what happened, super random comments by Jenson, but oh well, it became a super big joke line for our platoon.( non-leopard 4 ppl if u see this and find this not funny, sry arh, inside joke:p) from then on, the night snack coporal thing became a legend in platoon 4, nobody doesn't noe abt him,lol, and his lines are used every now and then and we r nv sick of laughing at them:D (btw he is night snack coporal cuz he serves us night snacks every other evenings) btw he just ORD-ed on friday just before our 24km route march, i shook his hand to congratulate him, he looked bewildered cuz he doesnt even noe who i am, but he didnt noe, he brought lotsa fun and laughter to our platoon unknowingly, thanks man jenson.*salutes*

went to NUS open house today, felt kinda relieved now cuz i alr applied for NUS and stuff, things are getting into place, now it's just waiting for the outcome...

Thank God

2007-03-05T09:21:00.000+11:00

I am so glad that i have my bunch of sisters and brothers in Christ around me. went to church today, learnt that i shld be contended no matter what the result is, yup i shld, even though it's still quite depressing compared to many others in my sch and so on, but i will haf simple faith and accept it as part of God's plan for me. Lotsa uni application to be done, it's very stressful cuz still needa do tons of research for the possible interview rounds (hopefully i can get thru the first round). thx jeremy for saying very confidently that i definitely can get into med, it's really very encouraging, i will do my best! so happy to have them around me when i am at my low tide, kim and ying too, talking to them(including pam) has alw been one of my fav activities!:D

POP in about 9 days, BMT passes really fast, hope whatever unit i got posted to, i will be able to appreciate it and thank God for it. OC night coming up, finished choreographing already, gee, tedious, but it is quite nostalgic, thinking about my dancing days in MAD again, oh well...
some stuff/desire that i haf now: 1.get into NUS Med
2. get into OCS
3. something (for me to know for u all to find out,heh)

We are blessed to not get even more blessings, but to bless others, yes, pass the blessings:)

uncertainties

2007-03-04T09:20:00.000+11:00

i am so freaked out by alot of things that are going to happen or hasnt come yet, haiz...what should i do??? oh well...

A lvl

2007-03-03T09:19:00.000+11:00

nth much to say abt it, quite disappointed tats all i can say.

long time no see

2007-02-27T09:18:00.000+11:00

hello my dear faithful readers (if u do exist)!

been busy in army so didnt have time to blog much and sry man, cant really blog abt army cuz everything is a secret in army, if i tell u i haf to kill u;) tats wad my officer alw tells us when we ask him certain qns,lol.

March is a mth of results for me man, A lvl results, army posting results, NUS med application results, and some other things tat matter to me alot.
will blog again when i feel like it, heh, so come on, own up, who still reads this blog anw, just tag, thx alot!haha

2007-02-19T09:17:00.000+11:00

Let's pray for it let's pray for it let's pray for it, I have faith tat it will work out well((:

Leopard

2007-01-29T09:17:00.000+11:00

hello people of the civilised society!

this is recruit chen reporting from his 17-day tour at tekong. alright, i got posted to company leopard (some ppl echoing "LEOPARD" in the background) yes, many ppl said it's one of the most slacking company around, but i dunno, still quite tough to me though, mb i am just unfit:P anw yup, this 2 weeks are adjustment weeks, so our sergeants and commanders didnt punish us or what, like what sergeant tan alw said," this 2 weeks i give it to you." yup, mb we will be whacked heavily the minute we get back, which is like 4 hours later...

the training was quite tough at first, those AGRs, 30-60s...basically those running stuff lar, the rest i still okay with them. but after awhile these runnings get easier, just like what the sergeants said, they are progressive runs, so i am glad that my stamina is improving...about the route marches we had so far, 4 and 6km ones, i was quite okay with them, i didnt have any ache like my platoon-mates, the only thing that dreaded me was my blisters on my small toe due to the digging in of the front part of my boots, they were painful with every step i took...anw hope the skin there gets thicker and they wun affect me anymore...pull-ups, i used to do 8, but went in there and became 3 during IPPT Cat test, nvm, hope i will toughen up as time goes by...

the food there was o-kay, but as time goes by, i got very sian of the food and was just eating it for the sake of filling my stomach...esp the breakfasts, which i do not want to be reminded of, for those who liked char kwey tiao, i am quite sure they hate it now... the footdrills were fun, although they were tiring to some...the only thing tiring to me were the runs lar...SOC was quite fun so far, cuz we didnt do it with our FBO, so it's completable, but think i will still be able to complete it lar, by the end of BMT.

yes, SAF promised us 7 hours of slp, so our lights out time is 10.30 and must wake up by 5.30...but the fact is, who can fall aslp immediately at 10.30 at lights out? and r u really sure u can finish brushing ur teeth, wash ur face, get dressed up and fall in at 5.45 when u r sharing 7 basins with 49 other ppl? so basically u slp at 11+ and wake up at 5+, abt 6 hours only, well, i think they do understand that they didnt give us 7 hours full, so they arranged lectures every now and then for us to slp in, how smart(:

halfway through these 2 weeks, i was getting really sian of army life, it's the same old routine every single day...wake up at 5, do 5BX, breakfast, area cleaning, first parade, training, lunch, training, dinner, training, night snacks, 9.30 admin time rush to toilet to compete for cubicles to bathe, wash clothes, lights off at 10.30, and it goes on and on everyday, can c many sian-ed faces around me too, dunno if can tahan 2 years liddat or not...

was quite happy when i booked out on friday, went to dinner with family, finally, some proper food...anw i am quite sian now cuz now i have like no choice cuz i haf so much uncertainties coming up, results, OCS? NUS Med? i dunno what to do cuz these r crucial information for me to make whatever plans i wanna make. although sometimes i hope they wun come too soon as they may affect my life drastically, mb in a sad way, somemore all coming at abt the same time... oh well...lets just have simple faith in God and submit to whatever He has planned for us, yup!
alright, back to my finalising of packing of my bag to tekong, will be having field camps and shooting test this week i think, yup, gd luck to me, hope i wun tire out, will update again when i booked out next weekend...("leopard" echoes at background)

last post...with hair

2007-01-11T09:16:00.000+11:00

i know i haven't been blogging ever since the start of this year, which is like 10 days ago, but that is because i am booked every single day after the camp, no time...heh. let me see...countdown at nic's house and playing fighting games using gays, potluck dinner at pam's house, OCIP BBQ, guys coming over to my house to play sports, playing arcades and watching Night at the Museum, buffet afternoon tea with KYPAD and lotsa lotsa shopping with KYPD and also farewell dinner with Fantasix and KYPD.

anw i dun feel like elaborating all those outings, so just know that i had fun in all of them;) just packed up my stuff for NS, it's finally time for me to serve the country...i am not feeling scared or what, just being resistive to the change i guess, dun like the change in company, change in environment, and now i have to follow someone's command for 1yr and 10 mths...oh well, shall not complain so much, i shld just take it like a man...

i wun be blogging for at least 2 weekends from now on...anw just wanna say to all those guys in my class going in on april, i will welcome u all in april man, hehehe...and to my close girl friends, you all take care of yourselves k, wadeva tat happens there is still hp;)
Had lotsa decision makings recently, hope they are right, committing all these into God's hands:)

The KYPAD Camp

2007-01-03T09:13:00.000+11:00

This may not be the most fun camp ard, but it is def one of the most enjoyable camps i have ever had.

1st day: well, all of us were late! hahaha! had lunch there then we went to a nearby grass patch. We played a game with all 4 of us blindfolded and having to get the rope tied into a circle across all of us and our limbs were quite entangled while at it:P we also did some ice-breaking stuff like self intro, but obviously it was not needed, we were like best of frens in class alr,lol, mb only useful for mr Alex Tan (now he can find a blog mentioning his name while searching for blogs)...

It began drizzling and we found a shelter. Mr tan wanted us to walk all the way to the OBS activity centre from Macdonalds, about 4km...it was very tiring as we needa carry our fully loaded bags with us, and we had poncho over us, which was quite stuffy.It was especially difficult for pam and me us all the can foods were in our bags and we were carrying the tents...but ying and kim were commendable too, as they dun usually carry so much stuff to walk long distances one(xiao jies:P), but they did it anw, gd job, gals! it was a literally back-breaking walk, pam and i had to constantly find shelters to sit down and regenerate our strength abit...finally, we found the orange building of destiny, the OBS building and after settling down we went for kayaking...it's really very fun, although i haf done it b4. while kayaking halfway pam and kim will lie backwards to rest at times and i had to pedal myself, lol. sometime i slack myself at the back since they can't c anw...it started raining heavily while we were in the middle of nowhere, so mr tan asked us to row back ashore...the whole thing ended quite fast, it was a pity, if only the rain hadn't come...

After washing up, we learnt tent pitching and also laid out the 5 rules we had for out camp, it's pretty amusing, esp the drawings beside the rules, by kim the pro.
We pitched our tents near the sea after tat, den started cooking our dinner, which was quite tasty...

lighting the fire was quite scary though, cuz u will def haf the scalding feeling at ur thumb while lighting the spirit up, which was not a very nice feeling. went for grocery shopping after that cuz mr tan said our food supplies were not enough! anw at night we broke the rule and played cards together in 1 tent,lol, sry mr. tan if u r reading this:P

2nd day: We woke up and reported 7 mins late, so that's 7 more push-ups for us! ok lar, we did some runnings, static PTs like push-ups and crunches. we even played games like evolution which kim lost, poor kim, but it's super funny seeing her remaining in her egg form:D anw after that we did our reflections and wrote down our new year resolutions, for me i wanna master my handstands and air freezes and also to learn jazz guitar and piano...we went to climbing adventure after that to do rock climbing. at first it was pretty easy, but after awhile my muscles started to ache and i just gave up halfway on my last climb. it's pretty funny when kim's belaying, cuz we will all be very scared!lol, not ur fault kim, u r too light, we r too heavy:P kim was very lazy to reach the top, so pam suggested putting 10 dollar notes at the top, HAHA! Mr. Tan wanted us to view the top as our new year resolutions, so that we can climb towards that.
We arrived at our next campsite after climbing, the Changi beach. the wind was super duper nice. We pitched our tents and took our own sweet time to start cooking and stuff.
It was really a nice scnen to see all of us helping each other without complaining, but of cuz, we are all very willing to help each other at any time:D
the dinner was very nice with the cooling wind and tasty dried noodles...we also fried sausages and stuff...

we started playing guessing story games like john threw a stone and romeo and juliet died, why? haha, lotsa funny and lame questions popped up:P anyway, we went for our solo walk after that at a place we can't mention publicly...anw, that place was pretty scary as it was abandoned, broken window panes, empty rooms with dusty tables and chairs and just simply pitch dark at night. the gals were very scared, well, i haf to admit i was kinda scared too, as the environment was really very spooky.it's really too scary, so we split up into pairs lor, kim and pam were like gossiping all the way to distract themselves. Ying and i we were simply just walking briskly and saying stuff like watch out for that step or sth liddat, hahaha, guess we were braver;) the whole walk was quite short though, super short in fact, but nvm lar, better not play with fire for too long:P the night was one of the best nights ard i shld say...we went back and started our gossiping session with mr tan. he was asking about our gossips, like kim and her erhm, yy and her erhm, me and alice and pam and her thousand and one pursuers. btw there were FOUR singles, not TWO singles;) we also got to know abt mr. tan's love story with his beloved buffy, he promised to invite us to his wedding, yay! anw mr. tan was really lucky to know all about our secrets all at one go cuz nobody in class knows all about our secrets, except for the four of us ourselves, circle of trust man;) after that, mr. tan left for his house far away so that he could charge his phone, we took a nice night stroll along the road inside the changi beach area. we talked abt lotsa stuff, haiz, dunno when we will haf this kinda chance again after this year when all 4 of us can pour out to each other.

we walked up and down the road back to our tent then out again, total twice, cuz the walk was really enjoyable:) we slept way past lights out time tat night, ok lar, we never slept on time through out the camp, oops:P

3rd day: Mr. tan came late, so we didnt have any PTs. we stirked our tents and left the beautiful changi beach which the gals wanna stay there for the rest of the camp,lol. anw we left for the jetty and arrived at pulau ubin.

with our bags and everything, we trekked from checkpoint to checkpoint. It was a very fun exp as we tried to not get that dirtied by the mud on some roads, some really could not be avoided! we learnt how to navigate our way using the map, kinda cool.
our biggest motivation throughout the trek was the seafood dinner mr. tan promised us if we reached our campsite by 5pm, which we did, i am glad, we made it through together:) we were all so shagged when we reached our final destination, the toilet beside our campsite.
the 1 hr rest b4 dinner after the trek was a real gd slp to me, i really slept soundly, though it was just an hour. after the sumptuous dinner,

we pitched our tents blindfolded with one person directing who couldn't touch the tents, a challenge for us since we were all high-levelled tent pitchers,lol. we had a chatting session in the shelter beside our tents at night. Hot seat was on and we were asked to talk abt each other's gd and bad points. you have to be there urself to understand how heartwarming the scene was, the fact is, we really couldn't think of bad points of each other, mb we were too used to each other's bad points, heh, at most it's sth like david alw haf curfew cannot hang out more with us or pam too nice liao then alw get bullied by her certain friend... even mr. tan was so envious of our strong frenship:D mr. tan was also asking us to think abt the trek during the day, we didn't quarrel at all we realise, yes, we were all v accommodating of each other, we were thinking if there was anyone else ard things wouldn't be so peaceful all this while...everyone was quite tired that day so we slept at 12+, quite early as compared to previous nights. While i was laying out my slping bag in my tent, pam said it's as though i was having a one-man disco inside my tent cuz the tent was shaking and i was using my torchlight to shine ard, heh.
Last day: we woke up and did our last PT. Mr. Tan told us that we will be doing a 2km run which turned out to be a 4-5 km run cuz he didn't wanna discourage us b4 the run, heh, gd tactic. kim was leading us in the run, gd that her pace is slow, i can slack:P after that we had our breakfast to clear up the food remained and also striked our tents. the camp ended.
4 is really a gd no., one more person there or one of us missing from the camp will make the camp less enjoyable alr. just wanna say my life in jc was made much happier cuz of u 3, pam, ying and kim, thank you...

Taiwan trip

2007-01-03T09:08:00.000+11:00

Alright, i noe i haven been blogging for quite awhile, but i seriously have been busy, too busy…taiwan trip was okay, at least bought more clothes this time, and got myself a swatch, cool~ it wasn’t that cold…ate like crazy as usual…felt quite sad when my grandma told me my grandpa just following a daily routine of waking up early in the morn to do a bit of walking(he can’t walk very well alr), eat breakfast, watch tv, eat lunch, watch tv, sleep, do abit of walking, dinner, watch tv, sleep…every single day…it’s so boring, but no choice, haiz…and maybe he is just looking forward to the end of every year when my family goes back to taiwan…even then, he cannot really join us to go anywhere cuz he can’t move very well…i dunno wad to do to make the situation better, i really dun…

anw, realised my cousins have really grown up! one of them have a bf now alr, and she looked really grown up. Scenes of us all playing hide and seek together in the big house, jumping the big beds and running through the bushy field and see who got the most love grasses sticked onto our pants were still quite fresh in my memory, time really flies…we are all entering the adult world of worrying for money, jobs, marriages and homes…i really hope we will help each other along in the near future, at least i will:) i really haf lotsa memories of us playing since young that i still think back at times, fun and happy childhood, haiz…if only time can stop then…

Church Camp

2006-12-20T09:06:00.000+11:00

Just came back ytd frm chuch camp...

learnt alot about God and NS during the camp, really glad that i learnt more abt God!:D first day, the schedule was quite slack, just playing games and having workshops at night...the workshop is pretty interesting though, eugene and his vulgarities song and sexual-words-movie...lol, dun get the wrong ideas, he was just trying to teach us about influence of popular culture, btw Stan is quite a nice song, just ignore the lyrics and enjoy the beats;) it's quite sad that only sherman brought cards, so everyone had to survive with one deck of cards throughtout the whole camp:P

2nd day: after bfast and singspiration, we had forums, which is a very wonderful thing to be put into the camp, i really appreciated the forum...learnt alot abt NS life from Marcus, Wen Kai, Josh and Shangjun, hope they wun penalise me to become an officer just because i am a taiwanese...anw after lunch we had tonsa games at a field...the water bomb game was kinda funny...starting from briefing when eugene said we haf to erect a structure from each team to be protected, den some guys started laughing...including me, yeah, u noe y...lol! and the game ended like in 5 mins instead of the 1hr we had during orientation in sch, cuz there is lack of water bombs, oni one pail full!lol! anw must thank God for the gd weather we haf cuz it was raining just before all the games started, but when we were about to cancel the games, it stopped raining, thank GOD!:D we had speaker session in the night after dinner, i was kinda dozing off, crapppp, when can i stop falling aslp during services, speaker sessions...2nd night was really a better sleep than 1st night, cuz i borrowed eugene's NS insect repellant, so i can sleep without having to cover my legs with jacket in the middle of the night (already got like 10 bites over my legs and even palm on first night)...however 2nd night was much colder than 1st night, so was fighting the cold and not the mosquitoes on 2nd night, but relatively it's a better slp:)

3rd day started off with another speaker session in which i was dozing off AGAIN!!! but after the speaker session we had this group discussion about the changes in our lives and God being the unchanging God always there for us...I am really really glad we had this discussion and i learnt more abt God and his plans...with pro ppl like Jeremy, Eugene, Mingdao and Sing Ee in my group, we were able to discuss very actively and indepthly...learnt about God's plans for us and how we shld really pray and why, sounds fundamental but i am quite sure many of us Christians out there dun really understand the reasons behind praying and what we shld really pray for, come to me if u wanna noe more abt these:) so after lunch, my grp was discussing about our skit for talentnight...with spontaneous ppl like Mingdao, we came up with the whole idea pretty fast and of course, a very funny one...Afternoon was dragonboating...it was starting to raining very heavily when we stepped off the bus bringing us to Bedok reservoir, so Sherman, Eugene and I ran to the nearest telephone booth, very funny, then many others just wanted to squeeze in, so it's like 20+ ppl fighting for the phone booth!HAHA! in the end many just ran further to the toilet to take shelter...we all gathered in a big shelter beside the lake after a few transportations with a few umbrellas, the rain wasn't ceasing and the clouds looked extremely menacing...it's very very cold, especially for me wearing the black sleeveless singlet, cuz the wind just kept blowing and the rain just kept falling...we all prayed together for the rain to stop...and the rain stopped after awhile:) THANKYOU GOD! then we went for dragon boating, which many of us though was a good experience and we had much fun!(although Sharon was complaining of her muscle aches the next dayXD) it was talentnight at night, which was when many of us almost died laughing...Elroi, being the gay and funny host together with shy ethel, another host, hosted talentnight...my group won the best overall skit! was so happy!haha...we had this penguin land story, super funny, esp wen kai who won the best supporting actor, he and his mop!!!hahaha, wanna noe more? come ask me;) mingdao and liwei really made me laugh like mad, elroi too, i really respect ppl who can make me laugh so heartily, cuz in sch usually is me being the humorous one and making everyone laugh, only pak in sch can make me laugh like mad i think;) after talentnight is cluedo by eugene the pro thinker, thx for planning for a few days for cluedo!!! my group was the funnies group i think, instead of interrogating the suspects and getting clues, we went around accusing all of them and making fake claims and assumptions and harrassing the suspects, HAHA, mingdao even wanted to lie in the middle of the field to act as the victim who died!LOL! Desiree was sooo funny, here's the convo during our interaction time with this so called witness of the murder:

Me: so what sch are u studying in now? (she was supposed to be a student who witnessed the murder)

Desiree: NUS lor...

Mingdao: NUS stands for???

Desiree: errrr...(thought for awhile) Nation...

Mingdao and me: MURDERER!!!

think Desiree was just having mental block suddenly, so funny, basically my team was just accusing anyone who had inconsistency in his/her words regardless of whether it's purposely or accidentally,hahahaha...stella was also quite traumatised by my group, hahaha, she kept on saying i am not the murderer!!!lol! after the game we just slacked around and talked and played instruments for fun till very early in the morning...i was very fascinated by mingdao's jazz playing of piano...i really wanna take up jazz piano and guitar soon!:D

on the last day, cuz i slept at 4+ in the morn, i was a walking zombie again...we unpacked and prepared to move out of the campsite...after helping to unload stuff at the church, james offered to give me a ride to toa payoh, or so i thought...on the way, james asked where i stay and he actly took me all the way home!!!i was so surprised and kinda touched! thx James!!!

Word of the camp: KINKY!

Question of the camp: If team A leaves place B at 3.55pm, show that 3+5 isnt equals to 8. (3 marks)

and that's basically my church camp, had much fun and learnt much stuff:D
and now i am packing again...leaving for taiwan tmr...pray that i will have a safe trip:)

CHUA CHALET

2006-12-15T09:04:00.000+11:00

In the morn, went to Eugene's house with Sunny, Neng Yang and Jiehui to play risk, wow, it's really quite hard to conquer the world, and lotsa luck is needed, haha but at least it's an intellectual game that allows me to exercise my brain, and the wantan mee there is not bad

Anw after tat went home to pack up and set off for chua chalet, e luxurious chalet!!! the catered food there was better than prom's one, at least to me, the food's more attractive! Drank lotsa ice wines and XO but didnt try the maotai tat is 53% alcohol, heard it burns ur throat though! but anw think cuz i drank tons of sprite together with XO, so my face didnt get very red, although Zong thought i was acting weird after drinking, lol!

Went to pick pam up from Pasir Ris MRT at like almost 12midnight...it began to rain super heavily just when i left the chalet to pick her up, so i didnt bring my umbrella which was in the chalet and we had to share hers...we got ourselves totally wet due to the raging rain!!!We even walked to the wrong road, good that we stopped halfway to ask someone:P there were frogs everywhere on that ulu stretch of road, pam was freaking out!XD anw we arrived at e chalet after awhile with my shoes totally soaked with rain water, including my socks and ankle guard, soooooo grooooooossssssss...good that i rushed home early in the morn the next day(today) to air my wet shoes and wash my wet jeans:P pam still got whole day rehearsal at her church's concert, oh well, jiayoujiayou!

Anw i cannot dun mention abt the majhong we played during the chalet. we played from 10+ pm to like 6am and died after tat, cuz we were trying to complete one round of dong nan xi bei but bei played halfway all died liao, lol, must say zongyi, brendan, Elvin and me are zai ppl who were determined to finish the round, although it would haf finished if Samuel who was playing initially in place of Elvin didnt lian zhuang so many times, lol!

Thanks Mr. Chua, for making an effort to organise this chalet, i really had much fun. and thx for all ur teachings for the past few years, u r really one of the zaiest teacher i haf ever seen, i am glad my learning journey had u as a guiding light and will still remain as the guiding light in the future! Will never forget you, Faraday Chua...

Tmr still got church camp, i am appointed as the group leader again...quite tired out by chua's chalet, but nvm, slp earlier to nite, church camp will be fun, yes it will be...:)

TDO

2006-12-12T23:52:00.000+11:00

For some reason, my internet explorer can't connect to blog spot...so YY suggested Firefox, yes now i can connect, but seems like i can't edit my first post-_-, is it cuz it's too long???

Anyway, we had our TDO (The Delin Outing) yesterday..at least for the first half of the day... early in the morning, we went to school to play bball, we are: AWX, Nd, Grace, Ze, YY, me and DELIN...we tried our best but couldn't beat delin's team, whichever team he was in, haiz...too zai already, once the ball left his hand, it's considered in, and we couldn't never outrun him or get past him with the ball...for it is the delin outing!!!lol! After a few hours of barbecuing ourselves on the bball court, we decided to stop and go for lunch...YY and Grace went home, Delin went for his PSC talk and Nd, AWX, Ze and me went to haf our lunch at Food Republic...the fruit juice there actly costs like 2.50 per cup, can u believe that???

We went to Cine after that to check out movie timing for "Flag of our Fathers", at the same time saying hi to Tim and CY who have been kidnapped by our seniors to go for the 5-hr kbox marathon, heh. basically, we were just killing time to wait for Delin to finish his PSC talk and join us for the movie...but apparently Delin went home after the talk, so we decided to have our TDOWOD! (The Delin Outing without Delin) Zong joined us and I asked pam along, so the few of us went down to the new Cathay cineplex to catch our movie...Pam ah Pam, she thought i said Lido, so she went to Lido, den after that i told her no, it's at Cathay...So she went to Cine's Cathay--__--" finally after the movie has started for an hour, she reached the REAL CATHAY and joined us for the movie, hahaha, must have burnt off much peanut cakes after walking around tat much!XD the theatre was real cold btw...was shivering halfway thru the movie...

After that Pam and Ze left, leaving us few guys left, so wad's there to do with only guys around? needless to say...LAN! Bern joined us after his band and we went to play lan...was thrashed, but i had lotsa fun!:D

It's quite a tiring day, but it's worth it...jiayou Delin, go ahead and defend Sg first, we will join u soon...

2006-12-12T22:21:00.000+11:00

Hi everyone!

I have always dreaded to blog, dunno how many times ppl ask me to start a blog but i simply am too lazy...even though i had one in sec 4, tat was kinda a failure which died after 3 posts...(was quite surprised grace actly found e abandoned blog though)

However!!! My dear friend YY has helped me make a super cool and wonderful template and promised to prompt me every now and den to blog, so yes, lets all prat together tat this will be a successful blog tat u all can read abt david(me)'s life;)

Alright, since this is my first post, i shall write a long one, firstly, let's talk about prom!

Ok, we guys did tons of shopping for prom (for e first time in e whole 2 yrs), Nd bought his chase-cow shirt, Nic bought his brokeback mountain shirt, Biondi slacked and bought at G2000, and as for me, i bought at Zara, felt quite bad for spending my dad's 299 bucks, but i think it looks really nice! Den i got my shirt at 77th street, but didnt wear it in e end cuz my dad bought me a 60bucks shirt somewhere else which Nd, Nic and my mum said looks better than e 77th street one, so oh well, wasted my 45 bucks:x

And other than shopping for prom, we also had band practices, which were real fun times! I finally bought my electric guitar after A levels, and it's totally black, looks kinda cool to me but to some ppl it's dull...Anw, we booked studios cuz Pam wasnt in Sg and we couldnt use her house...it's good that we got the student promotion at Tiet Studio and it's 5 bucks per hour!!!so each of us paid only 5 bucks for total of 7 hours there!!! Jamming is way fun, cuz all of us had background in the instrument we playing, so it's quite fast mastering it. We spent most of our time coordinating our music and making the singer sing in tune (not saying anyone specifically;)) I must say Kim is really commendable!!! She joined us halfway and was willing to learn and stuff, she is really amazing, and Kim, yes, you are part of the band and just as important as anyone else of us!!! Furthermore, Kim had to start off our band performance cuz of the song The Scientist. She did it without showing much fear, I was really proud of Kim that day during prom!!!:) And Pam, although you left the band halfway, you are still part of the BROADBAND and hope u enjoyed our performance during prom!:D

During prom, it's just tons of photo-taking and walking around to chat, but it's a wonderful night when all the girls you know in school changed so much and the guys becoming more handsome cuz of the suits and hair and stuff...oh, and i shldn't forget to mention abt the hairdo incident we had...Delin, Zong, Nic and I went to Kimage at plaza sing to style our hair...we were informed it's about 20 bucks per person, so yeah ok...and the good thing is they are all leading and master stylists, so it's really great that we can get it at such a cheap price! So we started styling...in the midst of it, i overheard Nic's stylist asking nic if he wanted to haf his hair cut as well so that it will be easier to style...Nic of cuz said can lar! Free one wad, somemore so kindaly asked, so cannot reject... So in the end Nic paid 52.50 while the rest of us paid only 22.50...Somemore Nic didnt show his student's pass so he didn't get the 15% discount that we got, so yeah, he got double conned by the master conman;) lol, cuz apparently the haircut was not free...and Deling got a hairstyle with only the fringe changed into all pointing at one direction and Zong's hair went back to the same messy stlye even before prom started...:x But i am quite contented with my hair, looks kinda classy and quite different from the usual me... here are some pics...

Alright, after prom, my class went to the prestigious hotel 81 that everyone only dares to mention but doesn't dare to enter...So being the courageous 05S78 as usual, my class booked the place with different ulterior motives each...;) but anw we didn't spend much time in the hotel cuz got the stupid rule that only 2 person can be inside the room at any point of time, what a rule to promote population growth, tsktsk...so we went to the nearby hawker centre and sat down to chat till morning, quite tiring...then the guys went to airport to send fukan off while me and tim slept for an hour b4 we set off to boon lay for our interview workshop...the gals continued to sleep till 11+ i think, lucky gals...(anw note that we slept in diff rooms, gays one room den guys and gals one room...)(no lar, guys one room, gals one room) Finally, i reached home after a super long trip from boon lay to yck after the workshop, den slept early to prepare for class chalet the next day...

Class Chalet! Dunno why, i appeared sian to some ppl but actually i was quite high...ok, so first day we had steamboat which just means lotsa uncooked big chunks of vege into our stomachs and some common stuff like sausages and crab rolls, so sad dun haf beef and stuff, probably cuz faq was there and we had to eat halal food, oh well, nvm, compromise compromise...anw after that we presented Mrs. Cheng with the present we prepared for her, she seemed happy and touched, so were we:D After that, Mrs. Cheng left on the last bus with Zhu Xuan and we started playing games that i have planned...It's kinda cool that our classmates all became so enthu and talented and spontaneous! It's such a fun time that we all had, watching ppl acting and playing the games...then it's the movie guessing game that Zong organise...It's super funny too, we had to say something to make people guess the movie in the first round, den in the second round only one word is allowed to be said, then in the 3rd round we can only act...the best ones are Colic by Nd, Brokeback Mountain by Pam pointing at Chuan Yuan and Iron Ladies and Meet the Fockers by Chuan Yuan...btw can canyone pls tell me how to act our Spirited Away???

Anw after games is watching of Korean movies and ppl started to lame and slp around...I chose to go outside and play guitar in the silent night, it's a peaceful feeling i had there, thinking about lotsa stuff...but went indoor after awhile cuz i got cornered by spiders, ants, mosquitoes and stray dogs...I went to bath after that, then played guitar with Pam till she fell aslp, den went for a walk with Kim, YY and Gloree...We listened and sing songs at the playground for quite awhile...After that, we went back to the chalet and woke everyone up to send vincent off at the airport...yep, by then i was already zombieing...went back to chalet and slept for 3-4 hours after that b4 i went to join the guys to play at the pool and bowling area...played fighting arcade games with Zong and lost both, DAMN! but anw that night was kinda normal for all of us, some of us watching movies, some of us playing majhong, some gals were chatting upstairs, as for me, i was all over the place, watching majhong playings, making barley and stuff...Tf pointed out tat there were only 6 cup noodles left, but alot of people want to eat, so i began to worry...then pam and i went out to search for food, lol, in the end we brought back some cheesy meatballs, but nvm, at least they filled some of the stomachs...slept quite early that night, slept for like 9 hours i think, then we checked out with the sweet class gals cooking breakfast for us:) We went to have lunch at Bugis after that and parted...everyone was kinda sad, but we have decided to meet up again soon!

Oh well, was kinda pissed and stuff over the NYAA camp matters, but anw it's all okay now, we have postponed the camp and set the dates, and i am quite happy now cuz of some thoughts and doubts cleared in my mind and stuff...:))

Looking forward to Chua's chalet!!! Wine Festival here i come!!!